In His shadow I shine brighter...

Life won't slow down so you better keep up

2010-08-03T23:33:00.002-05:00

The summer has been full with a trip to Kansas City, Mo, Washington, DC, and Orange Beach... working out at the Y, teaching MAC classes at school, and just being at home. I have reconnected with one of my old and dear friends, and just relax. I just can't believe it is over.

I have decided to look for another church. I like FBC, but I feel at times, it is just an extention of school. I need a place where I am Rebecca and not Miss Helms. Where I can worship, serve, grow, and connect. Who knows where I will end up!

So that is what is going on...

Time Flies....

2010-04-28T08:33:00.002-05:00

And so... the end of the 2nd semester of this school year is speeding towards us... or us towards it... not sure which! So much has happend, yet not happend. Nothing really exciting in life at the moment, just ready for a break and summer. I am going to Kansas City, MO this summer for the National Forensics Competition and then making a little side trip to DC. Which of course is one of my favorite places! I plan to enjoy the summer and rejuvenate for next year. I will be altering my teaching schedule next year.... just a little. Still teaching 10th grade Bible and High School Forensics, but now Middle School Public Speaking will be in 7th grade and I will be teaching an Intro to Forensics class for 1 semester to 8th grade as an elective. Of course, I am also Trinity Student YMCA advisor... so the schedule will continue to be full! But it should be a fun year!
Oh... my best friend for High School is moving back to Montgomery! I am pretty excited about that! She has twin boys that are adorable. I cannot wait to spend time with that precious family.

Lilly turned 1 year on Easter. She is fun to have around.... and just a funny dog!
So that is life at the moment. 12 days until exams and the savages are restless!

I am so behind I am meeting myself coming!

2009-12-14T14:52:00.004-06:00

So, I have not updated this entire semester. And what a semester it has been.....

Lilly is growing and has gotten HUGE! But she is a good puppy....

My 8th grade Public Speaking class has been fabulous! They are amazing and I have really enjoyed getting to know them! Over all, my bible class has been dynamic.

My Forensics students are doing pretty well, but I wish they would put in a little more effort so they could make a name for themselves.

Student Y is going alright... we need a little more organization... but it being "student led" they have to learn to step up!

Haden Ellis served as Judge at Youth Judicial!

They did, however, make top 2 and 3 defense teams at Youth Judicial!

The 3rd place defense team in the state!

Sheldon Martin, Lisa Marie Morgan, Davis Vaughn, Lucy Jackson, Lauren Wallace, and Helen Brown.

This semester also brought some sadness. One of our 8th graders took his own life on Oct. 26th. When a life is gone a hole is left..... I continually pray for his family. God is giving me so many opportunities to minister from this situation. I pray that He moves me out of the way and He is seen instead. I will be speaking in March at a girls conference called COMPLETE at Heritage Baptist Church in Montgomery, AL about how to be a Godly young woman and use facebook, texting, and technology appropriately.

I am teaching college Sunday school at FBC Montgomery and co-lead a 7th grade small group... these girls are dynamic!

The Holidays are upon us. Exams begin tomorrow! YAY for 2 weeks off!!!

Crazy busy!

2009-08-18T15:32:00.002-05:00

Have I really not posted since April! Life went into fast forward toward the end of the school year and through the summer. School is back in session and it is a great year so far. I hope the rest of the year goes just as well. I will post more later... just wanted to touch base!

Ressurection Day

2009-04-11T23:49:00.002-05:00

This year Passover and Easter have fallen at the same time. Even though these are 2 different holidays... one came from the existence of the other. It was the Passover meal that Jesus shared with his disciples prior to the crucifixion. It was Easter that occurred 3 days later when they could not keep Christ in the tomb. So... both holidays are vitally important to Christians of Today. Many times we forget that Jesus was Jewish. He celebrated all the Jewish holidays and festivals throughout his life. He upheld the law... until it conflicted with his mission from His father.... So how do we celebrate both.... they should be celebrated in light of, because we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. It is Passover that is celebrated to remember Moses bringing the Israelites out of slavery.... It is Easter that is celebrated to rejoice in Christ dying to bring us out of our slavery to sin, so that we might have eternal life. What an awe inspiring event... so many times I am at a loss for words when it comes to the idea that Christ died for me..... even though he didn't have to... even though I deserve the cross, HE took MY place, so that I may live. Oh how humbling.... Thanks cannot express what I feel when I take into account my unworthiness for eternal life. Gratitude can't even begin to express what I am feeling.... I really have no words... I just stand in awe of my Saviour, my Lord, My life giver.....
May I remember tomorrow and every day after that .... without HIM, I am nothing...

not enough time....

2009-03-22T22:38:00.000-05:00

there is a lot going on inside the mind right now... I have a lot to say... but no time... be waiting for an update in the near future!

Spring Break and other thoughts

2009-03-20T14:50:00.002-05:00

So... this week was Spring Break! It was a relaxing week. I was suppose to go to Georgia, but didn't. Which, it all turned out for the best because I went with my mom to Louisville, AL to a funeral of a dear friend of the family, which was an all day event on Tuesday. The rest of the week I have done whatever I pleased. A glimpse into the summer I think. Even though I do need some sort of money making venture this summer... it would be nice to pay some bills off and get back to normal. Instead of living pay check to pay check, since I depleted my savings.

This week has been a texting week as well. My students, spending Spring Break in Various parts of the country, sent me text messages.... And I got to thinking. Texting is an interesting invention. You can have a conversation with someone and never really have a conversation. You are connected at all times, but not really. Your conversations never really end, because as thoughts come into your head... you type them and send them over the airwaves. It is a personally impersonal way to communicate. Yet, people call this sort of communication "talking". It really cracks me up! Because you aren't talking, you are having conversation in the simplest form.... yet it isn't interaction.

I can't believe it is only 8 weeks until exams. This year has flown by! And I have SO much to do in the semester!!!!! I won't be at school any Friday in April!!! The 1st Friday is Youth Legislature, the 2nd is Easter (Good Friday), the 3rd - I am taking my personal day and finally going to Georgia, and the 4th we have State Congress for Forensics!!!! So, really, I only have 1 weekend free in April, and it is Easter Weekend. It will be a whirlwind of a month... and then May comes!!!! Exams start the 15th... we are finished at school on the 21st... and hopefully my room is cleaned by then, and I don't have to return until the beginning of August.

I am enjoying my life at the moment... sometimes I have some empty parts that I would like to fill in the near future.... but we will see what God has in store!

Well, I am wasting my last weekday of Spring Break away, in front of the computer! Go enjoy the sunshine!

It's all in a days work....

2009-03-11T21:52:00.002-05:00

SO... what do you do with your day? What do you think about? What do you talk about? What do you listen to? What do you look at? I have been thinking about investments lately... especially with the economy tanking... but not just financially.... investments in the future, in the world, and in God's Kingdom. What investments am I making, or am I just spending everything I have right now?
My class at school has started reading Concentric Circles of Concern. It is a book that I was given by a dear friend and mentor.... then I read it in Seminary.... every time I pick it up I have to think about what influence do I make on the world, if any? Am I attentive to God's appointments in my life to tell others about and show others his love, grace, mercy, and story? OR am I too consumed with the me's... my life... my problems... my issues... the world?
Something to think about... as I go through the week and weekend... what am I doing to make a difference... a God sized difference in the world? Am I doing anything?

2009-03-10T08:28:00.003-05:00

This time change is killing me... I am so sleepy throughout the day! Hopefully, next week during Spring Break, my biological time clock can adjust. I cannot believe Spring Break is next week! This school year is flying by! We have 81/2 weeks left before summer. I feel like I have SO much to do between now and then, and inevitably, I will finish early and have to think of something else to do in class. Of course, with Spring Sports, I will probably spend most of the time catching the athletes up, since they miss so much class. Which, I don't really understand. The days get longer, so why not schedule those games that are WAY out of town on Saturdays... rather than taking them out of class. There are a few students who are on top of things and get their work done. But then there are the weaker students.... oh well, I guess I just have to go with the flow.
I think I need to go grab some caffeine before we have club pictures this morning!
I am off to get me a Coke Zero!

March 9, 1991.... My Re-birthday

2009-03-02T22:26:00.004-06:00

I can't believe it has been so long - 18 years. But it will be here in a week. I remember that night like it was yesterday. The night I prayed with Beth Saddler to make my commitment to My Lord And Savior Firm, and without questions. At times I feel like such a baby... with so much to learn. I fail EVERYDAY, yet HE shows me His grace and mercy. I neglect my relationship with Him sometimes... and treat Him like my "sugar daddy" of sorts, yet HE patiently waits for me to return and loves on me when I come back. I take my salvation for granted so often, yet He loves me in spite of who I have become, because He created me to worship Him and Him alone. It is time to re-evaluate and refocus. Life has changed so much this year... and I feel like He is on the brink of showing me something Great.... AGAIN!

in just one moment....

2009-02-22T00:23:00.003-06:00

So... life has been a whirlwind this past week. Even though it was a short week, it seemed to go on for years. And, so much happened. One of our sweet students at the school had a freak soccer accident and is in the hospital (check at http://joyportis.blogspot.com/) and I am praying for her constantly. One of our teachers had a baby, they are both struggling. The baby, last I heard is having seizures and they cannot figure out why... the mom has high bp and they can't get it to stay down. Pray for the Puckett's. And... some of my students have forgotten what it means to have a Christ like attitude, and how to treat others with the love and grace of Christ.

BUT, this weekend, has been good.... thus far. Leaving home at 10 AM I went to the nursing home this morning with a few of my favorite people in the whole wide world, got a hairs cut, went to the site of the Extreme Makeover Home Addition here in Montgomery, and didn't get home until 10 pm.... Good times.

Tomorrow I plan to join First Baptist Church.... and then waiting on a great adventure as I get plugged in there. It will be nice to have a church home again.

But all this to say... I love life.... more each day... but realize, it can all change in a moment of time. I, as a Christian, must be responsible for my own actions, leaving behind a legacy of purity, love, and respect for myself , those beside me, and those that will come behind me!

HOLIDAYS, Coffee, and friends

2009-02-16T17:55:00.002-06:00

This has been a 4 day weekend! YAY for holidays! It has been a really relaxing weekend and I have been rather introspective. I have needed to do lots of cleaning... but that will come in time.
I figured out I get irritated when people assume you are uncomfortable with Valentines day if you are single. I am comfortable with my singleness... yes I would like to be married, but that will come in time (I hope :)). But why would I be uncomfortable with the place God has me at this moment in time... I don't wish for something someone else has... I want my own relationship... that is unique and special. So, for someone to be all ooey gooey with their significant other does not bother me in the least. I am happy for that couple... that they have found their mate. So, that is my soap box for Saturday.
I visited Vaughn Forest Baptist Church on Sunday... it was alright.... but I don't think that is where I need to be. I am leaning towards First Baptist, but still have a couple of churches I want to visit. I have ruled out several... I need someplace where I can plug into ministry... not necessarily student ministry, even though that is my love... I am doing that at the school. I see so many opportunities with the caring center... and from my experiences at College Ave. in FTW, I know I would enjoy vounteering there. Ideally I would be able to help out with the college ministry as well... maybe at some point in the future.
I had coffee with a friend today and just listened to him... I love good coffee and good conversation. The friendship that I have with this person is such a blessing.... He and his wife are a great encouragement to me... and he will probably never know that.
So... I have had a great 4 days of rest.... tomorrow.... it is back to the routine. At least for the next 4 weeks... because then it is time for SPRING BREAK!

Contentment

2009-01-21T07:40:00.002-06:00

Philippians 4:10 -13
I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at least you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who give me strength.

One of THOSE days...

2009-01-20T19:14:00.002-06:00

Ever had one of those days... not a bad day... just a day that you weren't exactly sure what God is up to? One of those days that you feel a little unsure of what to do next? One of those days that you see someone with a baby (or even a commercial) and you wish that was you? One of those days that you wonder, what if? And, Why didn't I? One of those days you were a little discontent, but yet you love your life and job, and wonder why you are discontent because you have a great life? One of those days you want to cry, but you stuff it all inside and hope it stays there until you get home, but when you get home you really don't want to cry anymore?

Well... that was my day today. Apart from what is going on in the world... this is what has been inside my mind for most of the day! I am not going to write a bunch of Scripture here... even though I have been reading it tonight... I am just saying that sometimes you have those days.

As for what is going on in the world. I am praying for our new Commander and Chief, and praying that the administration is up to the task ahead.

And at the end of this day, which will end soon for me because 4:45 comes way to early when you stay up until mid-night, I still have a desire to be a mom, a desire to be a wife, a desire to know what God is up to.... but most of all I want to honor Christ with my actions and reaction and rely on Him, even though it is hard sometimes to give up the control!

To Be the Best....

2009-01-17T21:32:00.002-06:00

To be the best at something you have to prepare. It doesn't always come naturally, and you can't expect it to. National Football Championships are not won without practice....long hard hours of practice. Scholarships are not received without dedication and hard work in school. You can't just decide one day to run a marathon, and go out and win.... you have to train.
This is something I was thinking about today on the way home from our Speech and Debate tournament. Those that won, more than likely put in hard, dedicated hours of preparation. We have improved, but if we want to win, we have to dedicate ourselves, set a goal, and work toward that goal.

Our walk with Christ can be this way at times. It takes dedication... and at times hard work. There are days it would be easier to focus on myself than to pray for others in need. There are times I would much rather stay in bed, then go to church. There are days I want to give up on students who seem to not get it then beat my head against another brick way and turn blue trying to teach them the truth. But that is not what God has called me to. My goal... to become like Christ adn live for Him... that takes hours of preparation, dedication,. and commitment. Thank goodness He is willing to carry me through the days that I don't want to go forward... and when I wander... He doesn't waver... He doesn't move.... He waits for me to realize that I can't do life with out HIM all up in my business!

Freedom

2009-01-10T16:34:00.003-06:00

A weekend with no obligation. I have done laundry and read an entire book today. It is strange to have a weekend with no obligation. Sometimes it is nice... but others I wonder what it would be like to actually have someone depending on me. Someone to answer to.... I haven't really had that in so long. I am not talking about work, etc...

Oh, well... It has been realxing.

I am still church visiting. I am going to Heritage tomorrow. I went to FBC last week and have 3 people contact me this week. Visiting churches is not my favorite thing to do, if I haven't said that before. It is much easier when you are called on staff some place. Then you don't really have to think about it. You have an obligation to be a part of the church.

I will keep you posted on what I think about tomorrow morning.

Headed to the parents house in a little while...

May peace and grace reside with you today!

First Day Back

2009-01-06T17:39:00.002-06:00

The first day back is always a little odd. Since I teach 1 semester classes, it is almost like starting the year over. There is a new combination of students, new personalities, and you have to start all over. I just finished teaching the subject and now I have to go back to the beginning again. But once we get into things, it will be good. I am thankful for a 1st period planning time to be able to organize myself for the day!
Well, Next weekend I go the the University of AL for a Forensics tournament, And then the next Monday is a Holiday, then 3 weeks after that I will be in DC, then the next weekend we have a long holiday! And then 4 weeks after that is Spring Break... and after that, it is all down hill!
This semester is really going to fly by. I really need to find a part time job for the summer. Not that I want one, but it would help to get some money back into savings.

I am going to be productive... I will update more later!

Reflection

2009-01-04T23:35:00.006-06:00

So.... I finally sat and reflected on the past year... and evaluated my goals from last year and June. I have a birthday in June, so my true "New Year" beings June 2nd. However, I have made it a habit to evaluate my goals every 6 months. I have had some life changes since June, which does slightly alter my goals.
So here is the "State of my Life" address in a reflection of this past year and the last 4 days:)

Last January I was still a youth minister. I was making plans for summer. My best friend only lived an hour away for the first time since I moved to Texas in 1998. However... my life was so busy I had no time to myself. I felt like I wasn't giving my best to either of my jobs. However - I gained a new close friend in my fellow minister at church....
The end of school came in May....and summer began. Little did I know I would finally make friends with people in the church other than the youth and their parents through the Perry County mission trip. I had long talks with some of the ladies that week and learned a lot about the different attitudes within the church. I felt a real need to pray for the church and bring prayer as a ministry into the church body... however, could I really take on something else?
We then went to Nashville... I saw God at work in many different ways. I saw people step out of their boxes and comfort zones and join God in His work... and then take that home and apply it through working at the nursing home.
AND... then all hell broke loose. I lost respect for the leadership in the church, and they lost respect for me.... My philosophy of ministry is serve and let God provide. However, that is not what the powers that be wanted. And so, after a weary battle, I left my post. I am still a member, just not active. But, going different places, I have seen and experience what I have been missing for the past 3 years... the Holy Spirit being allowed to work.
So, here I am... looking for a church home and a place to serve. At times I feel displaced, others thankful that I am where I am, but most of the time I am still sad and miss my church family (as it was).... sure, we still talk... but those times are getting more sparse as life gets in the way. There will come a time that I become the remember when topic... and the where is she now topic of conversation. I will have moved on and so will they... or that is how it usually goes. This makes me sad. It is hard to move on.... but it happens. I hear about different youth from the church and see thier FB pictures ... their getting drunk comments and pics... and it makes me wonder if I did anything right. Did anything I said or did make any difference at all?

So what now? I don't know what the year holds. Good times... I am sure... disappointments.... of course.... But God is in control of it all.

My prayer is "Lord, make me an instrument of your peace. I want to know what it's like to follow you. When men look at me, I want them to see, the Light of the World inside" Move me out of the way and use me as you see fit.

While I am Waiting by John Waller

2009-01-04T20:07:00.002-06:00

I’m waiting

I’m waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I’m waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting

I will serve You

While I’m waiting

I will worship

While I’m waiting

I will not faint

I’ll be running the race

Even while I wait

I’m waiting

I’m waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful

I’m waiting on You, Lord

Though it’s not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I’m waiting

I will worship while I’m waiting

I will serve You while I’m waiting

I will worship while I’m waiting

I will serve You while I’m waiting

I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

A New Year with Reliance on my Lord and Saviour

2009-01-03T12:56:00.005-06:00

I want to sit and reflect on last year... what did I learn? How have I changed? Am I more like Christ than I was a year ago?
I have yet to make my new goal... they will come in time, I guess. I am still looking for a new church, a new place to serve and worship, lonely at times but thankful for my precious family... So what does this year bring? In all reality, my new chapter doesn't start until June 2nd... but my 6 month evaluation is over due. Where am I with my goals and dream for life? Maybe I will get to that soon....
I have to say, I am ready for summer, even though I will have to get a supplementary job for the summer... or rather I need to. I know this year holds surprises.... and there will be times He will walk beside me and others I will have to be carried. I crave to Be Still and Know that HE is God, so often.
May this year be one of growth and becoming more like Christ daily... and through it all may laughter be abundant : - )

Endings and Beginnings.... and other stuff...

2008-12-16T10:21:00.003-06:00

I have had a lot on my mind lately, but not sure how to communicate what I have been thinking. I have been visiting different churches... which is one thing I do not like to do, especially alone. Nonetheless... I am ready to be settled someplace and involved. I have a few more on my list that I want to visit....Going from church staff, to non-church staff is an interesting and at times difficult place to be.
I did go back to PBC for the Christams Choir thingy... I wanted to support Seth and those involved. They did a really great job! It was harder than I thought it would be.... not being connected, but being connected... if that makes any sense.

It is the end of the semester, the end of the year, and the beginning of something new. I have this feeling that this next year holds something big. At times I feel restless, but I am greatful that with all endings comes new beginnings, fresh starts... just like each new day. And oh how thankful I am that HIS mercies are new every morning.

So, I will continue to visit churches until I find my place.... I desire to be where I can serve, but also in a church that is in the mindset of serving.

I am in the process of setting new goals for the upcoming year.... but, until then.... Merry Christmas... may you celebrate the Birth of our Savior, whom without we would be lost in our own sins. However, because of HIS birth, death, and ressurection, We can have everlasting life.

Thanks, Thanksgiving, being Thankful

2008-11-25T11:49:00.003-06:00

Well, it is that time of year again. Thursday is Thanksgiving... a completely American Holiday where we say what we are thankful for.... but who are we Thankful to?
We are taught, at a young age, to say thank you to those who give us stuff... we even have to write Thank you notes for Birthday presents, graduation presents, etc.... But in life, who are we thankful to? And what are we thankful for? If we are thankful for our family and friends, who gives us those friends? If we are thankful for health, who allows us breath each and every day? If we are thankful for our tangible stuff.... who, ultimately, provides all our stuff? If we are thankful we live in a free country, who gives us that freedom, and who could allow it to be striped from us at any time? God our Father is the giver and provider of all.... however, we shouldn't be thankful for just the "stuff" and people He allows us to manage here on Earth, because it is all ultimately His.... We should be thankful for who HE....
He is the Alpha and Omega - the beginning and end
He is our Great Comforter
He is provider
He is constant - never changing
He is our deliverer

This reminds me of a Song by Aaron Jeffery called He Is

In Genesis, He's the breath of life

In Exodus, the Passover Lamb

In Leviticus, He's our High Priest

Numbers, The fire by night

Deuteronomy, He's Moses' voice

In Joshua, He is salvation's choice

Judges, law giver

In Ruth, the kinsmen-redeemer

First and second Samuel, our trusted prophet

In Kings and Chronicles, He's sovereign
Ezra, true and faithful scribe

Nehemiah, He's the rebuilder of broken walls and lives

In Esther, He's Mordecai's courage

In Job, the timeless redeemer

In Psalms, He is our morning song
In Proverbs, wisdom's cry

Ecclesiastes, the time and season

In the Song of Solomon, He is the lover's dream
He is, He is, HE IS!
In Isaiah, He's Prince of Peace

Jeremiah, the weeping prophet

In Lamentations, the cry for Israel

Ezekiel, He's the call from sin

In Daniel, the stranger in the fire
In Hosea, He is forever faithful

In Joel, He's the Spirits power

In Amos, the arms that carry us

In Obadiah, He's the Lord our Savior

In Jonah, He's the great missionary
In Micah, the promise of peace

In Nahum, He is our strength and our shield

In Habakkuk and Zephaniah, He's pleading for revival

In Haggai, He restores a lost heritage

In Zechariah, our fountain
In Malachi, He is the son of righteousness rising with healing in His wings
He is, He is, HE IS!
In Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, He is God, Man, Messiah

In the book of Acts, He is fire from heaven

In Romans, He's the grace of God

In Corinthians, the power of love

In Galatians, He is freedom from the curse of sin
Ephesians, our glorious treasure

Philippians, the servants heart

In Colossians, He's the Godhead Trinity

Thessalonians, our coming King

In Timothy, Titus, Philemon He's our mediator and our faithful Pastor
In Hebrews, the everlasting covenant

In James, the one who heals the sick.

In First and Second Peter, he is our Shepherd

In John and in Jude, He is the lover coming for His bride

In the Revelation, He is King of Kings and Lord of Lords
He is, He is, HE IS!
The prince of peace

The Son of man

The Lamb of God

The great I AM
He's the alpha and omega

Our God and our Savior

He is Jesus Christ the Lord

and when time is no more

He is, HE IS!

In Scripture... God's character can be seen throughout... and He has given us a GREAT example of What WE should strive to be. We should Worship Him this week for Who HE IS.... not just be thankful for allowing us to live the lives we live, but worship Him for loving us so unconditionally, in spite of ourselves and our weaknesses.

Happy Lists

2008-11-21T11:08:00.002-06:00

I had a friend who recently Blogged about "Happy Lists". She talked about when she was younger, she and her friends would make lists of thing that made them happy. I did this too... I never knew other people did this too!!! I have made lists of my favorites... things that made me happy at the time.... So, in remeberance of that time, and of the season on being thankful, here are just a few things that make me happy:

The smell of blown out birthday candles-spending time with family and friends-having a day to sleep in-doing something for somebody but they didn't know it was me that did it!- rain-a fire in the fireplace-reading a good book-Sugarland - words or names like "Kit Kitteredge"-feeling accomplished at the end of the day-mexican food and then ice cream-laughing so hard I cry- my favorite color organge-my new fav red-catching up with old friends-making new friends-traveling-making plans to travel when I can save enough money-listening to stories about times long ago-learning something new-board games- hot chocolate- a really good cup of expensive coffee (caramel machiatto)-Fall and Winter-Christmas music-seeing trees that have changed colors-the name Amelia- the possiblities of what is to come-peppermint mochas- cinnamon toast- driving to new places- walking on a crisp day in the middle of nowhere - II timothy 3:4-6 - Hebrews 3:13- finishing a project - taking a train trip - lemon cheese cake - strawberry cupcakes from Nancy Pattersons - skittles - new shoes - James Taylor - Texas - my girls in GA - Gilmore Girls - Chris Tomlin - Basketball - going on an adventure, even if it's just 30 min away

I am sure I could go on and on..... What would you put on your Happy List?

Thinking Globally but living locally

2008-11-19T14:26:00.002-06:00

This past weekend I went to Christ Community Church. It was the end of a 4 part series on losing what you don't need to have a closer relationship with Christ. This past Sunday was on "Losing Complacency"
Amos 6:1-6, Prov. 1:32, Jeremiah 49:31, Zachariah 1:14-15, James 4:17, Ephesians 3:20, Luke 10:38-42, Revelation 3:14-16.

Two Symptoms of Complacency
1. Satification with the way things are.
2. Rejection of things as they might be.
What vision do you have for your life?
What vision do you have for the church?

Good is the enemy of Greatness!

Three things that give victory:
1. Be in the right place
2. Be hearing the right voice - Isaiah 50:4
3. Set the right priorities

Psalm 19:14
Philippians 4:8

Don't be satisfied just by the way things are.

Think Globally, but Live Locally - - -

Strive for Greatness.... Just because things are good.... doesn't mean they can't be better.

My crazy life....

2008-11-13T11:23:00.002-06:00

There are just those days you want to escape, but have no place to escape to.... or money to escape with...
There are those days you are reminded about your past through friends and pictures on FB... oh the memories....
And then you realize that you are a grown up.... look at all the stuff you have done in your life. Think about the places you have been, people you have known (those that are still in your life and those that are now absent).... what have you accomplished? What mark have you made? What are you leaving behind to make a difference in life? What you do today, directly affects your future.

So my weekend plans have completely changed! I am now taking Friday off... just because I can.... and relaxing the rest of the weekend, with no real responsibilities!!!! Woop Woop!!!

Sometimes being an adult has it's perks I guess.... you do have to work, but if you save your days off... you can take them when you want to take them!

Now only time will tell....

2008-11-05T11:10:00.003-06:00

Are the election results a good thing or a not so good thing? Only time will tell. Will Obama get to select TWO Supreme Court Justices who are pro abortion and pro gay rights? Will he pull out of Iraq and Afghanistan ... and end the war on terror, ultimately allowing the U.S. to be attacked or another country to be infiltrated with terrorists? Will he withhold federal money from the states if they do not raise public education salaries when the states don't have the money to do so... therefore raising our taxes so the state can get the funding? Will he give handouts to those who are too lazy to work, even though they already work the system and get handouts through our tax dollars? Will he implement a universal health care system that doesn't even work in other countries? Only time will tell..... Right now, as a citizen, as a follower of Christ, as a human being, I must pray for our country and the decisions that are to be made. 4 years is not a whole lot of time.... What is sad is that this election was not about the future of our country, but about the color of a man's skin.... and about hatred for a man who has had much to deal with the last 8 years....
We have been here before... with the 1st Clinton administration.... there isn't a balance of power.... the world isn't going to come to an end... the one elected in 2012 may just have alot to clean up before true change can be made!

Frustrations, prayer, and wondering

2008-11-04T11:14:00.004-06:00

So... there are some frustrations with my students at school. Disrespect makes me mad, but I don't even know if they realize how disrespectful they are being. There is a lack of a sense of boundaries on their part that hasn't been taught to them. And now I am trying to figure out if it is my job to try to teach it. I only have 5 more weeks with this class.... then I get a completely new set of students.

Prayer.... praying today for our country.... PBC.... and a dear friends who are trying to make a difference in a place that seems to not want to change. God is in control... I know this!

Wondering... what is next. I still feel like a misfit when it comes to church. I do not like visiting around. It is a strange place to be when you have been on staff. You don't want to be overly critical, you want to realize that you want to be used by God, but where do you fit in the whole picture of the ministry of different churches.... Where will you fit and use the gifts, talents, and education God has given you?

My little Honduras Compassion girl wrote me a sweet letter, and I got it yesturday. She sent a verse with it. It was a good one. I will write about the letter later!

Now.... I have to finish the day and Go vote!!!!

Scarecrows, Pilgrims, and other things

2008-10-30T11:30:00.002-05:00

Like I have said before, I love this time of year!!! Last week I went to Holiday Market, this week is Pike Road Craft Show, .... and so on! Mixed in, of course is school stuff. I have Judicial next week, then a Forensics Tournament, then we are part of Twas the Night this year... It is a busy time of year. When December gets here, hopefully my life will slow down a little, and I can enjoy this season. It is a little odd not having a true Church home this time of year. I am still a member at PBC, but don't feel welcome there. I have gone to a couple of churches Christ Community and Eastdale. There are still a couple that I want to visit. Visiting churches is not my favorite thing. I want to be someplace where I can plug in and be a part of ministry there and in the community around it. There is a lot to consider.
Talk about adventure.

I, in the past, have been a huge procrastinator. However, when people use it as an excuse for not being prepared (and I am talking about students) it irritates me to the ends. And then they Whine about how much work they have..... this adds to the irritation!!!!

But... 5 more weeks and I will have a brand new schedule.

then 18 weeks and it will be summer!!!

Time is flying... are we having fun?

Family and time and friends

2008-10-22T11:45:00.003-05:00

There are many different definitions of family... some think of those that live in the house with them, while others branch out onto their family tree with aunts, uncles, cousins, and so on. I had the opportunity to see family (the branches of the tree) last night at the funeral home. One of my dad's 1st cousins passed away on Sunday, unexpectedly. Not the most joyous time to see those you never see, except maybe once a year at a family reunion.... if that even. Seeing family always brings back nostalgia and memories. With Holidays around the corner, I know there will be lots of family time. There are times we tend to rush through things... and forget that family is important, and the time with them is precious. As I get older, time passes by faster and faster. I can't believe the end of October already!!!! Fall also makes me think of friend time too! It makes me want to go to craft shows and buy Christmas presents, go to corn mazes and carve pumpkins, sit outside, and drink coffee. I think this may be my favorite time of year....

Lead me to the Cross

2008-10-21T11:07:00.007-05:00

Savior I come

Quiet my soul remember

Redemption's hill

Where Your blood was spilled

For my ransom , Everything I once held dear, I count it all as lost, Lead me to the cross

Where Your love poured out

Bring me to my knees

Lord I lay me down

Rid me of myself

I belong to You. Lead me, lead me to the cross, You were as I, Tempted and trialed.

You are, The word became flesh, Bore my sin and death; Now you're risen

To your heart

Lead me to your heart

As I reflect back at the past month... it has been a VERY long month.... It was 1 month ago that my last day was at PBC (the 21st). I see God working in me and refining me to become more like Him. I let myself get in the way of His work so often. It is a daily letting go of hurt, frustration, sadness, and worry for those I left behind. Not only daily... sometimes hourly! It is a changing of seasons... literally and figuratively.
My prayer for those I love dearly can be found in I Timothy 6:11-16

"But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance, and gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. In the sight of God who gives life to everything and of Christ Jesus, who while testifying before Pontious Pilate made the good confession. I charge you to keep this command without spot or blame until the appearing of your Lord Jesus Christ, which God will bring about in his own time - God , the blessed and only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords, who alone is immortal and who lives in unapproachable light, who no one has seen or can see. To Him be honor and might forever, Amen"

Fall weather and a breath of fresh air

2008-10-19T14:00:00.002-05:00

OK... first I am loving the weather... I want to be outside all the time.

You know when you have been inside for a long time and you don't realize the air you are breathing is stale, until you walk outside, or you open the windows and let the breeze hit you in the face.... or when you are on an airplane for a while and you finally get outside and take a deep breath.... that is what this morning was like. I went to CCC across from my neighborhood. It was good. Sat by myself, but just worshiped. It was like that cool breeze blowing in my face. The sermon was practical. I was in church for an hour and a half and it felt like 30 min. It was good. People were worshiping and loving God... I don't know if this is where I will end up, but it was good to see people be at church, not out of obligation, but because they wanted to be there!!!

Sign your name on the dotted line....

2008-10-18T20:59:00.002-05:00

Signatures... what is important about a signature. Well.... in some cases, it seals a deal. In other cases, it makes your mark that you have been someplace at a certain time. And still in others, it gives ownership to words (whether those words are good or bad). A person's signature is thier mark. My sister makes fun of my signature at times, becaue you cannot read it, really, but it is all mine... and hard to duplicate. I look around me, and God's signature is on the world and my life. For that I am thankful!

When I was in Seminary, I had a professor that talked about church relations, and to the fact that their are cowards within the wall of a church. He said if we ever received a letter with no signature... we should throw it away and not think twice about it... because without a signature it had no credit. If you can't own up to your words, then why write them. Say what you mean and mean what you say.... and never say anything to anyone you wouldn't want repeated.... and ALWAYS own up to the word that you have said!

Today I went to a wedding... didn't really want to go, but felt obligated to go, but then again, I wanted to see some people I knew would be there. I saw some people that I really didn't want to see.... saw some others that I did want to see... and saw others that I love dearly and have missed being around on a weekly basis. When God puts people into your life.... and you build a relationship with them... your signature, His signature, and theirs is on that bond - especially when HE is at the center of that relationship. When a king signed a document years ago... he had a signature ring... and would seal letters with his seal in wax... and if you got a letter with the kings seal... it was important. I view many of my relationships in this way.... they were sent to me with a wax seal from my King... they are important. And even though it is harder work now that I don't have the convenience of seeing them on a weekly basis... I need to make the extra effort to spend time with them and encourage them and lift them up in prayer.

I got to "talk" to a friend of mine tonight who is expecting a baby in May... I am so excited for them!!!! I cannot wait to see her in November! She is one person who I know is a God send... she always shows up when I need extra encouragement!

Hebrews 3:13 - But encourage one another daily as long as it is called today, so that none will be harmed by sins deceitfulness!

Paint

2008-10-16T09:00:00.002-05:00

Houses, walls, rooms, etc.... through the years they are paited and repainted. The color of the walls and how much paint does not make the home.... or the church. Does how a place look affect how you worship? It shouldn't.... the first church worshipped in homes. The first missionaries worshipped by the sea side at times. I have witnessed through the years people that became upset with the color of carpet, a wall, etc... however, they are not looking outside the walls for those that need Christ. Their focus is completely on how the building looks. We need to be good stewards, and keep the building in good repair, however, I don't believe that if a wall is purple polk-a-dotted, it should matter that much. And, further more, if someone wants it painted a different color... they that person should decide what color to paint it and do it... don't "make more work for others." It shouldn't be dumped into the lap of someone that doesn't really care if it is painted or not. It has all become trivial and stupid... a part of me is thankful that I am not in the middle of it... and a part of me is sad because those that I care so much about has to witness the pettiness of it all!
I believe I will look at the soles that need Jesus and not the paint on the walls!

Saddness

2008-10-09T11:53:00.002-05:00

It makes me sad when people I love and care about are going through somethings that are hard.... and there isn't anything I can do for them but to pray. It is even harder when part of what is difficult is caused by something that happend in my life. I wish I could change things....
I wish I could do more than just pray and encourage.

Context

2008-10-08T14:41:00.002-05:00

One of my pet peeves is when people take scripture passages (or just a verse) out of context.... using verses to prove your point making them mean what you want to say (proof texting). What is even more annoying is when someone begins thier proof texting in the middle of a sentence. At least start at the beginning of a sentence or paragraph!
I'm not saying you can't memorize a verse or 2.... but it is important to know the background of the verses.

SIGH........

2008-10-07T11:09:00.002-05:00

This is already a long week. I am ready for our holiday next Monday. I feel like I live from holiday to holiday, at times. But, I know that the rest of this month is going to go by quickly. We have a holiday Monday and half days Tuesday and Wednesday.... And then the month is half over!!! I really shouldn't be wishing my life away.....

Today in Bible we looked at Acts 13.... the chapter where Paul and Barnabus shook the dust off their feet in protest... and went on their way. It made me wonder what they were feeling and thinking. The reason I wondered this was.... Sunday night, I had a long prayer time.... just talking through things... and writing in my journal (something I haven't done in a while). And after this, God gave me a peace that I cannot explain. At the end of chapter 13, Luke tells us that the disciples were filled with joy and with the Holy Spirit.... and they went right on ministering.... just in a different region.

Anyways.... I am rambling at this point. I have much to do and only an hour free today, since I have lunch duty this week.

October

2008-10-01T08:18:00.002-05:00

This is my favorite time of year. I love FALL!!! Especially when the weather starts to get cooler, and you can almost smell the scent of candy corn in the air. It is pretty amazing. I also get into the Fall cleaning mode. Just like Spring cleaning... I want everything clean in time for the holidays!

I had a great discussion with friend yesturday. I am very thankful that we, as Christians, can continually lift each other up in prayer. Goodness knows I need all the lifting up I can get :-)!

I am so ready for the weekend. My weeks seem to be longer these days, without church in the middle of the week.... it sort of just all runs together. Life is a little strange right now. I don't have any planning of Bible Studies and activities.... which leaves me with alot of free time, that I haven't filled up yet. Yet is probably the key word there, because I am sure I will fill it up eventually.

Frustrated

2008-09-30T14:52:00.002-05:00

O.K., so, I feel frustrated today.... I feel like there are those people that think I am a horrible person, for one reason or another, but have never really given me a chance. I have wanted to cry, at times, today. Have ever been to the point that you knew you needed to pray for someone.... but really didn't want to. It is much easier to stay angry or disappointed in them than to hope they see the error of their ways. Taking the high road is way hard. Today I am thinking it may be too hard. Maybe I will change my mind tomorrow. If I could turn back time... how far would I go back? 2 months... 6 months... 3 years? I just have to keep reminding myself that God is God and I am not....

Another week, another dollar

2008-09-29T11:13:00.002-05:00

It is the beginning of another week. I love my job.... I really do, but I am counting down until summer. I live for holidays! October 13th here I come! The holidays are my time markers... or my goal days.... If I can get to that point then.....
I don't have anything real insightful to write about today. Just trying to catch up on grading and the rest of my life. Trying to get into a new routine that is now my life. I am still sad... but I cannot dwell on it. I miss my peeps! :) Not that I don't see or talk to them, but it is different.
My verse for the day.... Isaiah 26:8-9

Contradictions

2008-09-26T12:52:00.002-05:00

I read an email this morning and have been thinking about contradictions since I read it. What makes people like contradictory lives? We hear the saying "walk the walk and talk the talk" or as Scripture says, "let your yes be yes and your no be no (Matt. 5:37)" It makes me sad that sometimes people do not realize they are being contradictory....or as some would call it, hypocritical. I believe that a person's actions speak louder than words when it comes to people viewing ones life and the standards you say you live by. There are a few Scripture passages that come to mind, one being James 1:19-27. Live a life above reproach.....

I feel like it is Friday and I love the weather

2008-09-25T11:04:00.002-05:00

This has been one long week. I guess not going to church on Wednesday has made today feel like Friday. I just have to get into a new routine.
I am hoping to start a small group girls Bible Study at my house, possibly next month. We will see. There are several girls in the area that are interested. I have also decided to go visit the churches of my Bible Class students in the next several weeks. I will be attending some Baptist, Episcopal, Methodist, and Presbyterian Churches. I don't think I have any Catholic Churches this semester. It will probably take me about 2 months to do this. So the months of October and November will be an adventure.

Finally, my 2 favorite times of year are Spring and Fall. I am loving this weather. I wish I already had my porch screened in, so I could sit outside without the possibility of Frogs and bugs. Hmmmm.... I sense an adventure coming on!

Faith

2008-09-24T08:46:00.002-05:00

I was reading this morning in Hebrew 11:1-3 in the Message

The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It's our handle on what we can't see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd. By faith, we see the world called into existence by God's word, what we see created by what we don't see.

I also did a search for other verses that deals with Faith....

You've been raised on the Message of the faith and have followed sound teaching. Now pass on this counsel to the followers of Jesus there, and you'll be a good servant of Jesus. Stay clear of silly stories that get dressed up as religion. Exercise daily in God—no spiritual flabbiness, please! Workouts in the gymnasium are useful, but a disciplined life in God is far more so, making you fit both today and forever. You can count on this. Take it to heart. This is why we've thrown ourselves into this venture so totally. We're banking on the living God, Savior of all men and women, especially believers.1 Timothy 4:6msg

There is a song by Rich Mullins that I will always love. It reminds me of so many times in my life that my faith has been so little, yet God shines through completely. God is creator, Savior,... and should be Lord of my life. If I don't have faith, is HE really and truly Lord, or rather, do I allow Him to be Lord of my Life? He doesn't push Himself in, but waits for me to see that I need Him completely and totally. I have to say, each day I have to surrender my will to what HE wants my life to be like. I look back on my life and realize how many times I fought God on what He wanted in contrast to what I wanted. He way was always SO much better, in retrospect. Thank goodness He is God and I am not!

Hold Me Jesus

Well, sometimes my life Just don't make sense at all

When the mountains look so big

And my faith just seems so small

CHORUS:

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf

You have been King of my glory

Won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark

It's so hot inside my soul

I swear there must be blisters on my heart

CHORUS

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf

You have been King of my glory

Won't You be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don't come natural to me

I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want

Than to take what You give that I need

And I've beat my head against so many walls

Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band Is playing this hymn

And Your grace rings out so deep

It makes my resistance seem so thin

CHORUS

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf

You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace
You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace

2008-09-23T09:49:00.001-05:00

The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched; they must be felt with the heart.
—Helen Keller

The Crossroads

2008-09-23T09:02:00.003-05:00

This is what the LORD says: "Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls. But you said, 'We will not walk in it.' Jeremiah 6:16

Life has many times that we come to a point where we are presented choices, where we stand at a Crossroads and have to choose which way to go. God has given us a mind to logically think through these choices. I see 3 things in this verse... first you have to Stand and Look - you have to know where you are and what is around you... next, you need to Ask - ask for direction, ask questions about where each path would tak you, this is considering your options. In other words, don't make hasty dicisions, think things through and don't act on the emotion of it all.... and finally, Walk - go on the path God is leading, stepping out in faith and knowing HE is in control.

The second part of this verse is the response that the Isrealites gave to God's instruction... but how many of Us, at times, don't follow the path that God has for us. We venture off on our own, taking situations into our own hands? I have many times done this and messed up life. Not that God hasn't worked for the good in those situations, but it would have been SOOO much easier to go in the right way to begin with.

Strange feeling

2008-09-22T08:49:00.002-05:00

It is a strange feeling knowing I only hold 1 j0b... and that the ministry that I put everything into is no longer an official part of me. It is an empty feeling (this is the only way I know how to explain it). I am still very sad... no longer angry... just sad. I am going to miss working with Seth, who is one of the most precious people to work with. He has a worshipers heart. I feel like I haven't had sufficient time to have closure.... but it is what it is.... yesturday came and went. I think I did pretty well, considering the circumstances. I want to see change happen, for the sake of God's Church! No church is perfect, but churches should be growing and serving and loving....
A new chapter has begun... in this adventure called my life!

My Resignation

2008-09-19T10:39:00.002-05:00

September 17, 2008

Dear Pintlala Baptist Church,

I have had the honor and privilege of serving along side you and your students for the past three years as part-time student minister. I have seen God work in and through these students in many different settings and circumstances. Thank you for this opportunity, many of you have been a blessing to me.

That being said, there comes a time when we must make a choice. Through much prayer, thought, deliberation, and conversation over the last few weeks and months about where it is that God wants me, the conclusion is that I am called elsewhere. So, as of Sunday, September 21, 2008, I hereby resign my position as Minister to Students at Pintlala Baptist Church.

I want to encourage you, my brothers and sisters in the faith, to keep struggling, to keep wrestling with God, to keep seeking growth and change, to keep on discovering what it means for you to follow Jesus here at Pintlala Baptist Church.

May “The LORD bless you, and keep you; the LORD make His face shine on you, and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up His countenance on you, and give you peace.'

Numbers 6:24-26.
Only Because of Him,
Rebecca N. Helms

2008-09-17T15:11:00.002-05:00

This is some thoughts from my friend Becky Phillips.... Great thoughts and very insightful!

I was reading Joshua tonight (I know it's late.....but I'm insomniatic...if that's a word) and I found something that I thought was interesting.In Joshua 3, Joshua is preparing the children of Israel to pass through the Jordan river into the Promised Land. He tells them to sanctify themselves, and when they get to the Jordan River, to get in and stand still. After the Lord delivered the Israelites, Joshua commanded them to build an altar--stones of remembrance--on the other side of the river as a testament to what the Lord had done. I looked up some commentary on what the significance of the Jordan River was. What I found was interesting and the encouragment that I needed. In the Bible, the Jordan River is symbolic of the passing over from one place to another--specifically, at a point in one's life where the Lord is in the process of changing and molding a life. Joshua commanded the people to get in and stand still. At the point in our lives when the Lord may be molding us, it gets uncomfortable. The desire is to run, to go back to the "safe" and perhaps even pleasurable side of the river where we were before. If we follow the example, we should get in and stand still in the place where the Lord is growing us. As our relationship is just that---not a religion, but a personal, growing relationship with the Lord--this process should happen over and over again throughout the course of our walk on this earth. Don't run. Move to the place where the Lord has the ability (and permission--He won't force Himself) to teach you, and then stand still while He does!If you follow the story, Joshua commanded the Israelites, once they got to the other side, to construct an altar as a place of remembrance for what the Lord had done for them on that day. When you come through a period of trials, growth, learning, or help (and often they seem to show up together...), leave stones of remembrance as a testament to the Lord's grace and His work on your life. Allow the process of change in your walk with Christ to be one that others can be inspired by...not because of how phenomenal we are, but because of His mercy and grace that He would still continue to chip away at the areas of our life that are unnecessary to make us something beautiful.

May God continue to work in and through you, and may God chip away that which is unnecessary

The End

2008-09-15T11:25:00.005-05:00

Well.... this is it! The last week. How do I feel about this and what am I thinking? I am not sure about either of these 2 questions. But I know that I have done as God has asked. I have tried to reconcile. I have tried to go forward. Yes, it hurts. Yes, I am sad. Yes, I am angry (however that anger has turned into pity). It is sad when people can not get past something and move forward. Forgiveness is a choice...and moving forward is a choice. I am praying for all of those who are very dear to my heart. Those I have seen grow and change over the past 3 years. I pray that they get beyond the stagnation and stand up to make a difference.

Listen

2008-09-11T15:18:00.003-05:00

Last night our Bible Study time was about listening to God and how to listen. We fill up our lives with so much noise, it is difficult to hear what HE has to say to us. I am completely guilty of this. I know that I do not listen... or after I hear what He tells me, I doubt. Oh ye of little faith :)!

Broken but useful... and realizing all people are different.

2008-09-09T15:42:00.003-05:00

Have you ever realized how small you are.... but then realize how much you are used by Him? That is how I was today. In Bible class with the 10th grade, we discussed Faith and the Holy Spirit. We totally do not depend on the Holy Spirit ... we are control freaks when it comes to life. It is easy to say, "Let go and let God," until it is finally time to do so! The not knowing is scary most of the time... but it is also a huge part of the adventure. What is around the corner?

On another thought... all people are different. I am still trying to figure out why some try to put others in a box. If you know me, you know my philosophy of life.... step away from your box... throw it away if you have to. It is important to not get stuck in the way life use to be or the way you think life is suppose to be, that you miss the life that is going on right now! And, it important to realize that God created everyone differently... not everyone acts and reacts to situations differently. You cannot know what someone is thinking unless you talk rationally to them. Never assume! Always stop and consider.....

Jesus Messiah - by Chris Tomlin

2008-09-08T16:39:00.000-05:00

He became sin Who knew no sin That we might become His Righteousness He humbled himself and carried the cross Love so amazing Love so amazing Chorus: Jesus Messiah Name above all names Blessed Redeemer Emmanuel The rescue for sinners The ransom from Heaven Jesus Messiah Lord of all His body the bread His blood the wine Broken and poured out all for love The whole earth trembled And the veil was torn Love so amazingLove so amazing, yeahChorus: Jesus Messiah Name above all names Blessed Redeemer Emmanuel The rescue for sinners The ransom from Heaven Jesus Messiah Lord of all All our hope is in You All our hope is in You All the glory to You, God The light of the world Chorus: Jesus Messiah Name above all names Blessed Redeemer Emmanuel The rescue for sinners The ransom from Heaven Jesus Messiah Lord of all

Exhaustion.....

2008-09-08T08:21:00.002-05:00

Have you ever been exhausted? I am not meaning tired... I mean to the point that physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually you don't know if you can go one more day.... one more hour.... or even, one more minute. I have to say, I am at that point! Thank goodness my strength is not my own.
I still don't know exactly what to do. My gut reaction is just wait and see.... but what if I end up in the fall out? Does that matter? I have lots to think and pray through.....
The Scripture of the day is Galatians 2:11-21.

The coming of something new.

2008-09-03T13:21:00.003-05:00

You're going to find that there will be times when people will have no stomach for solid teaching, but will fill up on spiritual junk food—catchy opinions that tickle their fancy. They'll turn their backs on truth and chase mirages. But you—keep your eye on what you're doing; accept the hard times along with the good; keep the Message alive; do a thorough job as God's servant.

II Timothy 4:3-5 (Message)

As I was teaching Acts 1 today a thought came to me...actually it just came out of my mouth. We are His to use and to use up if He so desires. Those in the 1st church faced SO much... going against any tradition they had ever known, going against thier law, etc... Yet, they stuck to what they believed. They served, served in most cases until death.

Life is changing.... a new chapter is on the horizon... and I look at those things in my life that are a blessing. First, life itself, which includes the fact that I have everlasting life because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. . Second, my family and friends who love me inspite of me. And finally, truth, the truth cannot be changed... but it can be masked. However, knowing the truth and living it out leaves you free from regret and worry.

Preparation or Protection

2008-09-02T17:24:00.000-05:00

"You're going to find that there will be times when people will have no stomach for solid teaching, but will fill up on spiritual junk food—catchy opinions that tickle their fancy. They'll turn their backs on truth and chase mirages. But you—keep your eye on what you're doing; accept the hard times along with the good; keep the Message alive; do a thorough job as God's servant. " 2Timothy 4:3-5 (Message)

I really like how the Message puts this verse. Paul was instructing Timothy about his ministry... that there would be times that were hard.... what matters is how you act and react through it all. This past weekend was one of happiness and saddness.... I just pray that I have acted and reacted in such a way that Christ was and is being reflected to those around me.